Snow?

It's a cold snowy day here. Yuck. It's supposed to be that way until Saturday I believe. It's almost May, this is ridiculous.

I've got some thinking to do. Yesterday I spoke to my insurance company to see if they'll cover a midwife. They will as long as she's in their provider directory and it has to be in a hospital. I spoke to a doula yesterday who gave me the names of 2 midwives. I believe they're both relatively new. One is more experienced than the other. I'd rather have someone who is more experienced. I think I'll still meet with them though. You never know. One of them might be perfect. They both will do homebirths.

98% of me wants to do a homebirth so badly and the other 2% of me likes the idea of a hospital because, let's face it, crazy things happen to me. My only fear is that in a hospital, they'll give me a limit on how long I can labor and then drug me up to speed things along. Which I DO NOT want. David said he'll be there and there is no way he'll let them do anything to me that I don't want. Aww, how sweet :0)

If I were to go the hospital route, what if I labor too long at home and give birth in my car?? That would be horrible. So many things to think about but I've got 6 months. Which I guess really isn't that long.

Sometimes I think it would be easier if I didn't know things and then I just went on to have a "normal" birth experience that most other people have. I wouldn't have to think so much :0) I'm glad I know what I know and can make decisions though. I wish November would hurry up and get here!

13 Weeks

Fingerprints have formed on your baby's tiny fingertips, her veins and organs are clearly visible through her still-thin skin, and her body is starting to catch up with her head — which makes up just a third of her body size now. If you're having a girl, she now has more than 2 million eggs in her ovaries. Your baby is almost 3 inches long (the size of a medium shrimp) and weighs nearly an ounce.

Now that your fetus has completed the task of forming all the critical body structures, the organs go to work. The liver secretes bile, the pancreas produces insulin, and the kidneys form urine to carry waste away. The urine is excreted into the amniotic fluid. Your little one's intestines, which have partially resided in the umbilical cord, have moved back into the abdomen now that there's enough room to accommodate them. With muscle layers forming in the gut, it'll soon be time to get things moving through the digestive system, too.

wahoo!!! 2nd trimester is almost here! I think I may have finally gotten the sickness monkey off my back...maybe. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Today is David's first day back on days!!!!! It was hard for him to get up this morning! But he'll like getting off at 2:30!

A Good Day!!!

I usually feel pretty decent on the weekends with the exception of some moments. I don't know if it's the extra sleep or what. During the week is usually when I feel the roughest. Last week was especially brutal, particularly Monday. Today is probably the most human I have felt in a really, really, really long time. I felt normal today! Yipee! I would say something here but I don't want to jinx myself :0)

Today hopefully is David's last night working nights. He's gonna be tired tomorrow if they have him work until 10:30 and then have to get up at 4:45 tomorrow morning. I won't be surprised if they ask him to stay a couple more nights. We'll see. I hope not though.

Until tomorrow...

I'm Home!

I'm home and David has already run off. We had a great weekend. We took the scenic route up to Cascade and I'm glad we did. We saw some really pretty country. It was pretty chilly up there. Lake Cascade was still almost completely frozen. I couldn't believe it. There was quite a bit of snow left up there in some places.

We didn't do a whole lot. The main thing I wanted to do was go on the train ride but it was shut down in Cascade. We could have done a ride down in Horseshoe Bend but it was close to Boise and we didn't have enough time to drive down and get back before our dinner plans.

Friday we really didn't do much since we got there later in the evening. We got some soup and sandwiches and then went back to the Inn and relaxed. The bed was so amazing, I wanted to bring it home. Each night, the Inn serves milk and cookies at 8:00. I think that was the highlight of David's trip. Saturday we went further up north and drove through the Payette National Forest. It was pretty. There really wasn't much to do up there. David was bummed because he wanted to take his fishing pole but forgot it and his fishing license. So we came back to the Inn, relaxed some more and then went to our candlelight dinner. It was good. My only complaint, they only served water. People were bringing in their own wine bottles. David and I were surprised by the staff with a bottle of sparkling apple cider and wine glasses that were brought to our room.

Today we came back a different route and drove through Boise and Twin Falls. That was some boring country! I'm glad we went the other way to get there! We stopped off at Shoshone Falls and Twin Falls. Due to how low the water is, it was neat but not as great as I've heard it's been.

So now I think I'm going to start a movie and just hang out. My weekend's not over yet :0)

Happy Anniversary!!

It's a cold rainy morning here in Preston. What a beautiful way to start off my weekend getaway...not.

I'm sitting here while David puts a bolt on my alternator or something and then we'll finally be on our way. So far, we're only 41 minutes behind schedule. This thing he is doing was only supposed to take a few minutes. I have now checked my facebook, checked out pioneer woman's website and am now posting on here. I'm wondering why he's in the rain wearing a jacket with a hood and not wearing the hood. I'll never understand him.

Oh! The hood is going down! I must be on my way! We're taking the scenic route so we can do some sightseeing in the rain. I'm going to have lovely pictures to post. Oh and I apologize in advance for any pictures that may be seen of my hair today. My bed was nice and warm.

It's a Good Morning to Stay in Bed

I need to change my background. Easter is over.

Since work is really slow I have a lot of time read some things. I've been reading about cloth diapering as I've mentioned but I came across something called elimination communication. Geez. People who do this are people who do not put diapers on their children at all. They learn cues that their children give so they know when their child needs to go to the bathroom. Um, no thank you.

David is taking off work tomorrow so we can leave earlier for our mini vacation!! I feel like I haven't gone anywhere in a million years. I think I have spring fever or something! David and I are both excited.

This morning is really cloudy. We had some nice rain yesterday but I don't know what the weather is supposed to do today. Looks pretty gross out. I like cloudy mornings.

Hopefully after this weekend I'll finally have some pictures to post!!

It's Only 7:57 AM...

I got a baby swing yesterday! A co-worker gave it to me and it's in really excellent condition. It's kind of crazy that I have a baby swing...

I've been trying to eat breakfast for the last hour. I think today might be a better day? Yesterday was, so hopefully today will be better too. I've gotta figure something out! How in the world does the Duggar lady have so many children? She must not get sick! At first David would tell me "you're the one who wanted to be pregnant" but now I think he just feels sorry for me!

I guess there's some confusion going on at his work. I don't know what all that entails since he and I don't get much time to talk. So, I'm not sure if he's going to go back to days next week or not. I sure hope so. I hate him working nights. So does he.

David and I are leaving Friday to spend the weekend in Cascade. Have I mentioned I'm super excited? We thought we were going to go for one night but we get to go for 2 now! Yay! That'll give us more time to sight see. I'd like to go on a train ride but I'm kind of concerned about the whole sickness thing. Other people might be grossed out if I'm dry heaving...

Until next time!

12 Weeks

The most dramatic development this week: reflexes. Your baby's fingers will soon begin to open and close, his toes will curl, his eye muscles will clench, and his mouth will make sucking movements. In fact, if you prod your abdomen, your baby will squirm in response, although you won't be able to feel it. His intestines, which have grown so fast that they protrude into the umbilical cord, will start to move into his abdominal cavity about now, and his kidneys will begin excreting urine into his bladder.

Meanwhile, nerve cells are multiplying rapidly, and in your baby's brain, synapses are forming furiously. His face looks unquestionably human: His eyes have moved from the sides to the front of his head, and his ears are right where they should be. From crown to rump, your baby-to-be is just over 2 inches long (about the size of a lime) and weighs half an ounce.

Bored

I'm watching Beetlejuice. I haven't seen it in years.

Today was a really rough day. I was sooo sick until late this afternoon. I had a hard time falling asleep last night and so I was extra tired today. Not to mention I don't have anything to do at work so it's even harder to stay awake while sitting in my office all day. I wore my sea bands all day but they're not miracle workers. That's for sure. Tomorrow is a new day though. Tomorrow I will be 12 weeks and I'm hoping that the next week or so brings some relief. I pray I'm not the kind of girl who's going to be sick my whole pregnancy.

I'm already getting winded in the middle of the night when I have to climb down out of the loft and then back up it and over David. I can't wait until he goes back to days. This is the last week of nights :0)

I booked a room for us for our anniversary and we're going to have a candle light dinner! I just hope I can eat for it. I am so looking forward to this. David and I never spend time alone it seems. So this is good. I can't wait to use my camera!

Well, my movie is almost over and I better get to bed soon. I have to get up early...

April 19, 1995

Wow, I can't believe it's been 15 years since the bombing. I still remember that day as I know most Oklahomans do.

I feel like crap. I might lose my mind. I don't think my sea bands work. Some things say that the first trimester isn't over until 13 weeks some say 12. If you divide the 40 weeks by 3 than you get 13 weeks. Anyway, I'm coming to the end of it. I should be feeling better but I think it's worse. Ugh.

Friday is our 5 year anniversary and I decided that I wasn't going to push doing anything because I always do. But then my sweet husband remembered that I've been wanting to go to an inn up in Cascade, ID. And he told me to book a room! I am so excited! This will be our last mini vacation before baby is born...wow. I'm sure since we have no family around it will be our last for a long while :0) So I'm really looking forward to it. I wish it were later in the spring season as I'm sure it would be super beautiful up in Cascade. I might see about taking a train ride through the mountains on a railway made for the miners or lumber guys back in the early 1900's, or something like that.

Well, I'm going to continue sipping my 7 up and try eating something. Blech

It's Coming....

My 5 year anniversary is fast approaching so I thought I'd share some pictures since it's been so long since I have!

Have a good weekend!

Spring!!!

Today is such a beautiful day! It's actually been getting too warm in our cabin so we've been sleeping with the windows open and the ceiling fan on. The frogs make constant noise around the pond and there is some bird that has the ugliest call I've ever heard that is really noisy.

David brought me home chocolates last night. That was a surprise. David never gets me anything. He said he knows a box of chocolates are cliche but I was just happy he thought about me! He told me he wouldn't eat any of them but that he would wait until I left behind the ones I don't like. He's so kind.

I've got errands to run today and I might see if I can find the sea band bracelets somewhere. They're supposed to help with nausea by putting pressure on some point on my wrist. I need some relief; I'm going to go crazy.

Wish me luck

201 Days?

201 days is so far away!! Can't wait to meet baby!

When I went to the doctor on Monday I told her that I thought I had a bladder infection and they called me yesterday and told me that I do. Thankfully it's not bad.

I cannot even describe how happy I am that David is going to go back to days. My sleep is so disrupted. I am soooo tired. Also, when I need to talk to him, I'm usually to tired to talk about it when he gets home and that's pretty much the only time I see him...what was his name again?? I almost forget what he looks like...

So, other than that there isn't much going on. We're boring, I know.

Cloth Diapers?

Ok, I'm hoping for a better day today. I spent the majority of the day yesterday fighting the urge to puke. I was sooo tired because I didn't sleep well the 2 nights before and then I sneezed all day long. Sneezing alot makes me feel drained. Today I am tired but I'm hoping the nausea won't be so bad today.

I found out when I went to the doctor on Monday that the hospital in Logan has jacuzzi tubs, birthing balls and they let you walk around. The doc told me that the hospital has a low cesarean rate compared to most...what does that mean? Most hospitals have a rate of 80% and this one is 50%? And of course the doc gives me her opinions on homebirth. I didn't tell her that I am personally interested in it. I just asked a general question. Doctors sure know how to scare you out of it! But I had to go back to the waiting room for a few minutes and so I picked up this magazine and there was an article about a woman who did a homebirth. Ironic that I was doubting and then found reassurance so quickly? I think not!

Another thing that I am considering is cloth diapering. I've been reading about the health benefits of it. Did you know there is dioxin in disposable diapers that is one of the deadliest carcinogens? Also the cholorine and ammonia...not good. I've read about the environmental impact of disposable diapers. Disposable diapers are the third most common consumer product in landfills today. A disposable diaper may take up to 500 years to decompose. One baby in disposable diapers will contribute at least 1 ton of waste to your local landfill. And I've looked at the cost of disposable diapers. "You can expect to spend $1,500 to $2,000 or more on disposables by the time your baby is out of them." Holy cow. I could use that money on something else!

There are also a lot of neat options with cloth diapering nowadays. We'll see. It does gross me out to put dirty diapers in my washer.

I love looking into this stuff!

2 Posts in 1 Day!

I have nothing to do right now and I am so bored! I can't stop falling asleep. I'm waiting for lunch so I can go get something of substance so I can hopefully stop feeling like I'm going to puke. *sigh* so fun, isn't it?

I think it's so cool that I got to hear the heart beat yesterday. I mean, the pregnancy doesn't seem that real yet since I don't have a big belly and I can't feel it moving around. So, it was neat to hear the heartbeat and know that there really is a baby growing in there! I don't think I'll ever get used to the idea that I'm going to be a mom. Probably not until I hold that baby in my arms :0)

I seriously cannot wait until the holidays. They are going to be so much fun! Baby's going to get to experience it's first Thanksgiving and Christmas right away! This might be an expensive Christmas :0) That's okay!

11 Weeks :0)

Your baby, just over 1 1/2 inches long and about the size of a fig, is now almost fully formed. Her hands will soon open and close into fists, tiny tooth buds are beginning to appear under her gums, and some of her bones are beginning to harden.

She's already busy kicking and stretching, and her tiny movements are so effortless they look like water ballet. These movements will become more frequent as her body grows and becomes more developed and functional. You won't feel your baby's acrobatics for another month or two — nor will you notice the hiccupping that may be happening now that her diaphragm is forming.

It was 7 years ago today that my sweet mom passed away. I miss her and I love her and I wish she were here to celebrate her grandbaby.

Heart Beat

Today was my doctor's appointment and I got to hear baby's heart beat. That was pretty cool. My aunt says it is a girl since it was beating so fast. We'll see. I think it's a boy. It was beating 175. Everything looked good. I didn't get an ultrasound and I was kind of bummed because I wanted to see the difference from the last one. Oh well. At least I heard the heart beat and know that my baby is growing!

Nothing New Here

It's been a lazy Sunday. The best kind. David and I are official members of Grace Fellowship Church as of today. We even got a fancy schmancy pen.

David's been gone all day and I've been watching movies on Netflix. The owners of El Shaddai got wifi out here and so now I can get on the internet. Thank goodness I have a subscription to Netflix.

I'm hoping to be out of this cabin here in the next few weeks. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I can't even tell you how excited I am to have a closet, a kitchen, a bathroom and my washer and dryer! This last year has been so tough. I'm ready to finally settle somewhere.

I go to the doctor tomorrow. I hope all checks out well!

Beautiful Friday

It's a beautiful day here in southern Idaho. The sun is shining and I can hear birds singing. I can't say enough how much I love, love, love 3 day weekends!!!

I have lots to do today!

Yesterday I was looking online at baby stuff, I've got to stop that...

Hmmm, what is it...boy or girl?

April=Good Month

It's going to be a good day. The sun is shining. I'm jammin' to classic rock. Vouchers for work are almost done. I don't feel like puking (yet). I'm drinking grape juice (that is too sweet) and eating pretzels. Great breakfast, eh?

April is going to be a good month for us I believe. We'll be preparing to move into a house. A HOUSE. I can't believe it!

The 20th marks 1 year since David and I left the great state of Oklahoma in search of fun and change.

The 23rd is our 5 year anniversary!!!! I realize that to many people, that's not long but it's the longest I've ever been married :0) I can't believe it's already 5 years. It seems like yesterday, yet so long ago. Did I have a life before David??

Also, yesterday David spoke to his boss about the fact that he really dislikes working nights. His boss was really nice about it and told him that he could go back to days after the 23rd. They have a guy who's going to start that already has managerial experience and they think he'll be a good replacement. I can't wait until he goes back to days!!!!

Also, next week on the 12th (I may reschedule though) I go to the doctor and should be able to hear the heart beat of my little bean!

There is a bummer for the month of April that I must acknowledge. It will be 7 years on the 13th that my sweet, sweet mom passed away. I wish she were here to celebrate anniversaries and babies with me but she is celebrating in a much better place!!

Another reason today is a good day: it's my Friday!!

Love to all!

So. Tired. Today.

Today has been such a loooong day. It's been crazy at work the last 2 days. I already don't want to do them for May or June (possibly July too). I am sooo tired! That's good though, I'm glad I've had something to do the last few days at work. Usually I'm fighting to keep my eyes open.

I'm so ready for the next 3 weeks to come and go. I'm really praying that this sickness goes away after my first trimester.

I'm super happy that we'll be moving out of the cabin here in a few weeks. I'm really happy that we're not moving into the 5th wheel! I am so excited for washer/dryer hookups and a bathroom and kitchen that's not in another building :0) Don't get me wrong, the cabin hasn't been bad. But it's time to move on!

I just want to go home and rest but I have to go to the laundromat. I seriously can't wait until I don't have to go there anymore. I'm dozing off as I type this so I'm gonna go.

I'm out.

10 Weeks

Though he's barely the size of a kumquat — a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom — and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce, your baby has now completed the most critical portion of his development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.He's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm.

Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy.

If you could take a peek inside your womb, you'd spot minute details, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin.

In other developments: Your baby's limbs can bend now. His hands are flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. The outline of his spine is clearly visible through translucent skin, and spinal nerves are beginning to stretch out from his spinal cord.

Your baby's forehead temporarily bulges with his developing brain and sits very high on his head, which measures half the length of his body. From crown to rump, he's about 1 1/4 inches long. In the coming weeks, your baby will again double in size — to nearly 3 inches.

On My Own...

Tomorrow I am on my own for the next 12 weeks at work. I thought I had the rest of this week to continue training but I found out today that I don't. Oh well.

We have been having a pretty uneventful time lately. We didn't do much for Easter, just went to church. We met with the deacons as the last process on our journey to membership at the church. It'll be good to officially be a part of a church family again.

Seems that some answered prayer has come our way and I am thankful. God is good.

I'm tired of the crappy weather we've been having around here. I'm ready for some sun and some warmth. They're saying we might get 1-3 inches of snow tonight. I hate how the weather teases you!

I got David to watch my documentary with me. I'm glad he did. I don't know if he is though :0)

Gotta go put my clothes in the dryer...

The Business of Being Born

Yesterday I got my documentary in the mail and I was super excited! I of course watched it last night and now I have to have a home birth :0) The documentary really gives you some things to think about. I can't wait for David to watch it.

They made a good point in the documentary about how women nowadays are afraid of giving birth. Society has made it to be some sort of painful, traumatic event that we want to get over with. Notice how people are quick to tell you their gory, horror stories of what happened when they gave birth? You tell someone that you want to have a natural child birth and you get "yeah, we'll see how you feel about that when the time comes." Thanks for the support...
Natural child birth does scare me but I'm fascinated by it, well, I'm fascinated at the prospect of home birth. Women are created to give birth. Our bodies know what to do. If billions of women have done it, I can too. At least that's what I'm telling myself! If you watch a home birth compared to a hospital birth, the difference is noticeable (at least the hospital births on a Baby Story! haha). I don't mean to put a damper on or offend anyone who has hospital births. In fact, I may have one. I'm just thinking about choices for me. And since this is my blog, I'll post what I want to! (it's my party and I'll cry if I want to!)

I'm also pretty excited about a book I ordered too by a lady named Ina May Gaskin. She's a famous midwife. Had I known I was going to be on my own at work today I would have brought it to read. Bummer. Maybe I'll go home at lunch and get it.

These are the thoughts of the day...