Overwhelmed

With a title like "overwhelmed", one might assume that my responsibilities as a mom of 2 has got me stressed, tired...overwhelmed. That's not what I mean though. I am overwhelmed with how good I have it. I have a hard working husband, money to pay my bills, a home to live in and 2 precious children. I am blessed. Sometimes it overwhelms me. I have it so good. So very good.

I am loving being a mom to two kids. Avery has got to be the most precious girl to walk the earth. She can be ornery but she has a heart of gold. Twice recently she has surprised me with the sweetness of her heart. Once I went to Walmart with her and baby David and realized at the checkout that I had forgot my money. I was embarrassed and mad. In the car on the way home Avery offered me her money from her piggy bank. She also now asks me if I have my money when we go places :)
The other day I told her we were going to a birthday party and I hadn't got a gift yet. She said "Mom, we don't have a present!" She decided she was going to give one of her ponies to the little girl. She also wanted to give a little goat that she plays with in the tub because it was clean ha! I thought it was sweet.

She is the opposite of me in so many ways. Her personality is perfect. She is the best big sister. She watches out for her brother and she loves on him. Her face lights up every morning when she sees him. She races to go get him up from his nap. She loves that boy. She calls him brother, buddy and bup. It makes my heart so happy to see the two of them.

I've been very blessed with how easy the transition has been since having baby David. I know I have many years and countless scenarios to come in which I will feel overwhelmed but we have transitioned as a family almost seamlessly. There was no disruption. David fit right in. He belongs to us. Most likely it was the 3 year age gap that helped that out!

David's personality seems to be more laid back than Avery. He's working on his own schedule as far as crawling, pulling up and eating food. He's a mama's boy. Big time. He loves me and I like it :)
If I get him up from sleeping and Avery doesn't go get him with me, I'll bring him to her and his little legs just kick up a storm and he smiles so big. He loves to terrorize her when she plays. He's so precious.

I just can't get over my kids. I'll never be a perfect mom. I will do so many things wrong. I will do some things right. I never want them for a second to doubt that I don't/didn't love them fiercely. Because I do. It overwhelms me how much I love them. I never questioned whether I'd love my second child less than my first. Not once. I can honestly say that. Moms over time have managed to have more than one child and love the others just as much as the first. I knew it was possible and I was right. I love David with every ounce of my being. Every fiber of my body. Just as I do with Avery. Someday they will read this blog and so Avery and David: I love you to the moon and back and deeper than the sea. I love you more than you'll be able to comprehend, until you have your own sweet babies. It is my prayer that you never ever question it.